today i was feeling oddly unhot, but whatever, passing thing. the day was still relatively beautiful and toasty : )
ranwa is going with ersin to prom so thus she has a date, that should be fun for her (*note to self* ask barky about corsages) heh maddie's personality disorder test says that she thinks people love her but they don't...heh...no comment...
Disorder | Rating
Paranoid: High
Schizoid: Low
Schizotypal: Low
Antisocial: High
Borderline: Low
Histrionic: Moderate
Narcissistic: High
Avoidant: Low
Dependent: Low
Obsessive-Compulsive: High

heh, who would have thunk i was paranoid, quoth ranwa today "you're paranoid ruchita, i mean jill" lol, i'm not paranoid per se, i don't know why my subconscious offers up the idea that perhaps john won't really take me to prom in the first place. kind of strange i suppose. in anycase, i've decided i'm going, decided on my dress and i'm happy. mads field trips make the world look better, especially when you get perfect scores, and sing music in 4-6 part harmony on the bus home. life's looking up, i suppose, and it makes me feel toasty.

well frezzo told me i should go to prom, and most of my friends have come to consensus on that point except for lara who suggests that unless it's a certified date with barky i shouldn't go because prom is so couple-y that it wouldn't be fun if it was at all awkward, however, i am unsure of how to go about clarifying something like that with barky and quisas it would be easier to simply not go *sigh* i'm not sure. anyway i've got piano to practice *muah* love y'all

lol chita and lara and the traumatizing mental images! i kinda have a date to prom, though it's not a date date, but whatever, i should be going which makes me very very happy, life isn't particularly eventful but happy nonetheless. ak i g2g finish this english outline, i love you especially ranwa and chita and sharon! *MUAH*

the show closed with a bang, that made me happy, it was wonderful, though somewhat strange to recognize the fact that we will never do this show ever again. cast party was interesting, i had a relatively good time, still need to get barky to take me to prom, in the mean time though i'm going to do textnotes. heh, as much as i realize i wasn't integral to the musical being a smash hit, i do love drama people, and that's what keeps me there, i know i'm not needed but i go anyway because i love the people : ). ranwa and chita especially. *massive hugs for the two of them* julia slept over at my house this morning, it was fun, talked about so many things, guys and "friends" and funny situtations, consolation hook ups : ). it seems very strange that this year is coming to a close so quickly, i miss the seniors already, *sighs dramatically* there's still some time left though, and state choral festival is on thursday which means madrigals on a bus to sykesville, doesn't get much more fun than that. anyway i've got work to do. wish me luck getting barky to take me! love y'all *MUAH*