opening night was amazing, i got out of my i have nothing to live for phase and i can't stop smiling today we're still going to have to have major energy tonight but i realized something while talking to chita. Starjcb [2:00 PM]: like i was not enjoying myself too much until last night and i realized why drama people are like my second family why i love them so much and i couldn't stop smiling because i realized i love being a part of it

today was pretty nice, ignoring the whole barky being kinda distant it was splendiforous, went out for lunch and came back and did the most wonderful thing, i went and laid on the softball field with jenny and julia and anthony and mitchell, there was a gentle warm breeze and when i got up to go inside i felt lightly toasted like a potbelly's sandwich : ). i love that feeling, it gave me a high not reminiscent of key lime soda, more like a feeling of contentment that could not be quashed even by a somewhat shoddy drama rehearsal (to clarify, it was not bad though my feet hurt with the fire of a thousand suns, and kept running away from me) i felt as if nothing could go wrong with the world because i was warm and safe unattached and for a while i felt relatively free of commitments. i love that feeling, i wish everyday was a warm half day *sigh* i'm wishing you all many warm contented days, love ya