i really don't like people. like i have no life, but it's good because it distracts me from the fact that i have no friends, and i can't get a guy, and all my other friends can. went to rachel's party, depressed me alot, i mean, julia, as much as i love her talks about liking some guys and then totally goes and throws herself all over trev, that doesn't make sense, i dunno seems like all my friends are affected by the amy-syndrome, and i guess the mix of people at the party was just not good for me, it was not conducive of my happiness. on top of that i want to cry because drama sucks and i can't really find anything to be happy about, i have no one, i am no one, and my life will amount to nothing.

just came back from mocktrial against frederick, not fun, we lost, horrible sinking feeling, but at least i had a good time with chita, and sharon, and dena, and the russian druglord with the bionic arm : ) and the android attorney for frederick. *sigh* we still have a chance if we get wild card. heh, i should find a junior to take me to prom, sharon and i decided that we'll go dress shopping, i'll help her get a dress she'll help me get a date : ) i wuv you sharon (aka the pretty munchkin)! hanging out with friends on the highway is always fun, and the town of frederick is really quite quaint (you get that feel after driving past the all saints episcopal church 3 times) yah well i hate to lose, especially when it's not fair but that's the way it is, at least we got to have great fun playing gestapo (mr thomas (to sharon): what's your favorite color? sharon: blue mr thomas: LIAR!) oh the joy, at least i'm glad that i'm in mocktrial, i wouldn't give it up for pretty much anything. anyway time to study for APUS, i'll ttyl love ya!

heh, well today was interesting, i'm scared for the muscial, i mean it's not as horrendous, i suppose, as it could possibly be, but about 1/3rd of our guys are tone deaf, and i don't think we can fix it before the show opens. *sigh* bush is sending us into war soon, possibly tonight, and i guess tomorrow there's going to be a walk out. as much as i am antiwar, i don't really see the purpose of a protest, it seems as if being antiwar has become a fad, sorta like being punk, and i feel like a lot of the people who are antiwar don't really research or know why they are antiwar. ah, it has come to my attention that it's 48 hours, well that's nice, bush is an imbecilic ignoramous (hey alliteration), i believe that going to a protest after war is declared does nothing except keep me out of chemistry and assist in my failing the chemistry test next week. my life goes on the way it always has regardless of war. hope we stay safe and happy love y'all

just finished watching cyrano de bergerac, doesn't get much more depressing than that. ah well, it's still beautiful, i seriously should've taken french. to elaborate on the straight tenor from whitman, yah for u mock trial ppl, es senor vaccio, i have terribly distorted perceptions as you all know, and as i've tried to enlist all of you to find me a guy at multiple points in time, but i'm actually not into him, something about the irish accent : ), anyway it's still nice to know that our county actually does have some straight tenors : ). still need to find myself a guy... anyway back to cyrano de bergerac, i usually don't enjoy pieces of literature, or films without happy endings, but cyrano has some beautifully eloquent monologues, and french is such a beautiful language for a story analogous to this. *sigh* it's just beautiful, it envokes such terrible tristeza and it's absolutely gorgeous at the same time.

"going into war without france is like going deer hunting without your accordian" that's sorta harsh don't ya think, i mean the french are cool, sorta, plus does anyone else find it alarming that we compare going to war for allegedly moral purposes to killing random animals for pleasure? eep, i'm almost done with my textnotes, and then i have to finish my chem lab which i totally don't get, save me! i'm gonna go now, love y'all *muah*