You are red. You are impure, but noble. You are precious and true to yourself and others. When you love, you love entirely, and will do anything to make your love happy. You are sure of your identity, therefore, you cannot change others or be changed. You are a true prince, you may be forgotten, but without you, none of us could go on.

What inner color are you?

heehee, who would've thunk? my favorite color, and it's actually pretty true to my personality.well i think so, what does everyone else think? today is rocking so far, listening to 80s rock with my brother, reading pride and prejudice and practicing early 20th century black composers. hee hee, i just ate french toast for breakfast and seriously y'all life doesn't get much better than this : )! *pour some sugar on me! i'm hot sticky sweet, from my head down to my feet ; )* heehee oh my spanish brochure is finished, i actually used the word subterranean : ) anyway i'll ttyl ~much love

heeheehee, i'm more upbeat now, i came back from piano and voice lessons and omg! i got a new piano book with black composers and why am i in love with coleridge-taylor's music *swoons* omgomgomg! it's just so great. anyhoo, life's not bad, i'm tired of being isolated from people other than my family and piano and voice teachers (who practically count as family anyway)

Starjcb [8:32 PM]: okay lol y'kno i was just thinking of that commerical jingle: "sometimes you feel like a nut, sometimes you don't" you don't ever not feel like a nut do you ranwa?
freakonalsh1385 [8:33 PM]: oh, i ALWAYS feel like a nut ;)
freakonalsh1385 [8:33 PM]: but sometimes i cant get some

lol ranwa's funny yah so i'm really happy, like genuinely : ) like i think even if everything stayed the way it is now, i'd be okay, cuz i'm usually fine, i mean there are so many things that i have to be thankful for i can't dwell on the silly things, lol j.phil's going on a date awww.lol wow i get so little play, ah well, i guess i only get what i deserve right? anyhow, i should go like call anita about the spanish brochure, god i hope it's fine now, i've done this thing like 4 times. *sigh* i'll talk to y'all later *muah*

hm, seriously wishing i could die right now. today maddie got really angry/defensive toward me and i don't really know why. she said that i flirt with nick (not that i was aware of) and that i'm not supportive of their relationship (i have no reason to be) and that i criticize them (wtf?) i admit i do some pretty insensitive things, and i apologized and offered to refrain from making any comments like that. however i really feel like breaking down in tears right now. nick decided that he doesn't want to be friends with me anymore, i mean it's fine that he chose maddie over me, but he feels we shouldn't talk anymore? i mean that's so incredibly uncalled for, i mean it's great if he's with maddie for the rest of their lives, but i don't see why i can't be friends with them if they do. i hate losing friends, and nick was a good friend once too...lol i'm like in love with the memory of the way he used to be. but no longer. i don't know why maddie hates me, i mean i'm not being a bad friend, i fucking gave up my friendship with nick for her happiness, if that's not friendship i'm not sure what is, i mean i make myself miserable for her, i wonder if she'll still accuse me of being unsupportive and a bad friend and what not. plus she makes me feel inferior, saying that y'kno "obviously nick doesn't have feelings for me" i mean i know it's true, we're truly platonic, but does she have to rub it in my face that i'm shit compared to her? i mean jesus christ! maddie seems to think i like him, but even if i do how would that make any difference when she's so adamant about his lack of feeling for me? i just, i don't like this, i hate losing friends more than anything, and i wish it didn't have to be this way, but nick seems to feel it's the only way to make maddie happy. hm...well at least i know where he stands right? i told him to have no regrets, not to be sorry for his choices, i mean it'll be well worth it, he won't miss me anyway right...damn it i hate crying. yah so, i can't sleep and i'm doing textnotes it's 1:15 AM, i wonder if today'll be any worse than yesterday. knowing my luck, probably. anyway all i can say is do a better job of hanging onto your friends than i have. *did you think that i would cry, on the phone? do you know what it feels like, being alone? swing, swing, swing from the tangles of, my heart is crushed by a former love, can you help me find a way, to carry on?* ~luv y'all

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this disturbs me greatly, i think everyone who knows me knows that i'm not that republican, i hate bush, i'm pro choice, and i hate american foreign policy. even if i do believe that the government shouldn't take normal citizen's money to help indigent lazy ass people that doesn't make me that republican, i mean i'm a conservative democrat but damn. anyway i have to go back outside to snovel show or shovel snow or whatever, it comes up to my upper thighs and i seriously hadn't realized my driveway was so long. anyway, i'll ttyl later ~luv ya *muah*