yola...happy valentine's day to all my happily matched up friends, and even to those who aren't happily matched up, i hope your valentine's day is better than all the lovebirds's out there. today wasn't bad, got a rose from lanna, (i admire you secretly too) and gave out chocolate to people and stuff, then there was a dancing rehearsal after school. our choreographer is great and i think the girls might be able to pull off the dancing, not so sure about the guys though, they don't know their left from their right and they can't stay together on the same beat. ah well, i actually *talked* to julia today, i hadn't done that before really, and it was cool, she's a really fascinating person if you talk to her. then i came home (it's supposed to snow really hard so i didn't go to the movies after) my mom picked up some groceries and some movies. my parents are so sweet together, even though they don't like me i deeply respect them and their relationship because they've been together for 30 years and yet they still have a strong relationship. so yah, it's valentine's day, and this year, it wasn't even mediocre, i think it might i dare say have been good. : ) oooh blog worthy quote: "this must be what it's like to be on dope"--frezzo. : ) today was fun, though the one complaint i have about the dancing for hello dolly is it makes me feel like a whore, like if you narrated it, it would be, "look at my chest, look at my chest, look at my chest, look at my chest, jiggle, jiggle, jiggle, slide, jiggle, jiggle, jiggle, look at my hips, look at my hips, look at my hips..." arg, i'm not a whore...contrary to popular belief ; ). i wonder when we'll see the fabric for the costumes/costumes themselves, lara's red dress looks phenomenal and it'll be even better when ms. saladyga gets done with it : ). overall, very good day, even though i had ravel's bolero stuck in my head, and then put on your sunday clothes. *put on your sunday clothes when you feel down and out, strut down the street and have your picture took, dressed like a dream your spirits seem to turn about, that sunday shine is a certain sign that you feel as fine as you look!* : ) hope everyone's valentine's day is superb, i'm sending out extra love for the unloved ones like me *MUAH!* ~love y'all

heehee, today was not interesting in any way really, i watched pride and prejudice again, i swear that movie is the sweetest thing ever, all 5 and a half hours of it : ) and let's see, did textnotes, read some jane austen, argued with ranwa about whether or not i'm fat, it was a usual day. heh, y'kno, even though i'm alone, i didn't feel particularly bad about it today, perhaps i'm resigned to the fact that that's how it'll be or perhaps i know how much i hate being attached. realistically, i would never be a good girlfriend (even though i took that quiz and it said i'd be a perfect one) because i like to be loved, but i don't like feeling obligated not to love everyone else, cuz i can't do it. for some reason though, i'm much more attractive to guys when i have a boyfriend, i dunno, i just like to have fun with people like i used to have with nick before he started going out with maddie. no feelings, nothing attached, just feeling good y'kno? lol i think i'm back into being my old self a little more, like the way i was when i stopped talking to ersin, i realize i don't need people, i don't need things to always be the same, and i'm actually better off without them. it's a good feeling to know that even if no one loves you you'll still be fine, i tend to forget that when i'm not forced to be alone. anyway i had a good day not like hyper good, but happy like ripe mangoes in buxton anyway i g2g y'all but i send much love *muah*