haha : ) i have succumbed to the facebook : )! friend me if you so desire : )

i'm tired. but at least my boyfriend thinks i'm cool. sorry i worry so much, i get cranky when i'm tired. <3 *secret plan noise*

alright so prom was fun on friday. let's see, there was paper 3 of physics during which my calculator just decided to die as soon as i started astrophysics...then i went and got my hair and makeup done. by that time it was time to get dressed. ersin came like 1/2 hour late to pick me up so waited around looking pretty. he came. i gave him his graduation present which he loved. we got to dinner an hour late and thus were kinda shoved at the end of the table *sad*. dinner was good. lots of pictures, giant cream puffs whee! prom was nice. lots of dancing, that's always fun though i'm not a party person with ersin though he's the sweetest bestest boyfriend/date ever. after prom i was dead tired, we drove chris and lanna to bowling and we sat in the car and talked and ersin played games on my phone. he tucked me in to the front seat and let me sleep. then we took lanna and chris to post prom, i proceeded to sleep more. then we went back to my house at 3AM ish and watched Along Came Polly. went to sleep. in the morning woke up and ate breakfast (yay my parents are awesome) then watched Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind with ersin (yes! meet me in mon...aco! : )) went to the strawberry festival, sat around eating fresh strawberries and ice cream enjoying the little things. drove around...kruhm road. went to drew and played on the playground. ah it's nice to hang out with ersin, he thinks i'm pretty. came home around 3:30PM and then went to tower records to do a Stat project which we worked on till 10:30PM or so. haha accidentally called mongoose "clingy" cuz i couldn't find a nice way to say "ho". jeff and lanna drew hearts on my boobs and we took lots of pictures : ). today i woke up and finished my independent study book, wished it wasn't so soon before ersin leaves for turkey and went to the grocery store for my mom. that is all. i feel like ersin's dad doesn't like me but at least prom was good. everything was awesome just not particularly climactic. i'm getting to the point where i feel like i'd rather just hang out with my friends doing stupid stuff, have more time to drink them in and what not (not in a weird way) alright, english journals beckon.

i love: pomade, funfetti, *feet feet*, pimpin', books made in 1850, gogol, next, praline pecan ice cream, optics, history (though english pwns j00), being a miser, making up, sea bears, turkish scrabble, icing, honesty, staring at places...; ). yesterday was really good, started out kinda shaky but ended up really awesome. Took the HL IB Spanish exam, did really well on paper 2 though i think i screwed up on paper 1. hopefully my oral exam score will help some with that. my dad brought home my prom dress. hung out with ersin for hours, ate dinner with him, went to get icecream at the cheap place near my house, talked for an hour or two about life and focus and love and history and the military and pragmatism. my prom dress is beautiful in an elegant sort of way. hopefully my beautiful young man will agree.

*BROAD GRIN* Richard Montgomery High School Mock Trial Team STATE CHAMPIONS 2004-2005! : ) : )! okay so yesterday we went up to Annapolis. I randomly ended up with a single room in the Radisson so I felt a little lonely. We had the semifinal match against Elizabeth Seton. Jenny and Alanna came to see me which was wonderful of them. Elizabeth Seton had a prayer circle I said "I don't think Jesus'll help them today". We did some "we're gonna RAPE KILL PILLAGE AND BURN!" chants and we beat Elizabeth Seton though we weren't really on top of our game energy wise and I had this massive headache that was exacerbated by the weird feedback coming from the micing system. Went back to the hotel, had some dinner and at 9PM there was the coin toss. Luckily for us it was the Prosecution again for State Finals (cuz everybody knows the Prosecution kicks ass). We worked until maybe 11PM and went to sleep with our mocktrial materials. Today we woke up (around 7AM) had breakfast and stuff, I went to borrow mascara from Becca and I saw Owings Mill (our competition) prepping below our window. They had like a little huddle and were like "1 2 3 Victory!" and were applauding for themselves and stuff. I thought to myself "sit down, this is our turn biatches". The we went over to the luxurious and regal Court of Appeals (it's got hard wood interior with a white rotunda and really high ceilings) and the trial started around 10AM. We were arguing before Judge Battaglia and two other judging attorneys. My opening got a 5 (though the judge said perhaps she wouldn't have been so dramatic, that's better than not being dramatic enough, I owned that courtroom and savored that opening) and the trial went pretty well. Owings Mill was so so so scripted, even their gesticulations, I guess that could be fine if you like that type of things but I can't stand it. Becca had an amazing closing [it was fluid and amazing and incorporated all the elements and that snap! oh god that snap!] and Josh's cross was BEAST! his last question he was like "so something something something" and the witness answered and he was like "that's what I thought. no further questions" AH! it was just his attitude! he was so cocky it was wonderful!. And it was so nice to win so so so nice, Becca and I were so nervous but it happened! We won on points (58-53) though the judge didn't believe she'd convict the defendant. Ah the sweet smell of victory! you know? our team is not the most spirited or bonded, we're not really a fun club, we respect each other and each other's skills but we're not like really ditzy and silly we're very very very serious. That may not make for the funnest team but it makes us feel like we have to win. We don't do this for fun, we do this to win. What a wonderful culmination to my high school experience : ) <3

so it's decided. HAVERFORD class of 2009! I'm excited. I'm not overly enthusiastic, I'm sure it's not a perfect school, I'm sure I'll have problems there, and in some ways I already miss my friends (especially one in particular who's going to hopkins). But we need this, we need to get away in order to come back, to appreciate what we have so here's the the 'Ford. Let's hope it's good to me : ). <3!

visited st. mary's yesterday. it was kinda cool to hang out with parents for the day, haven't done that in awhile. ran into liz lawrence : ) she seemed radiant. i didn't hate st. mary's i guess i liked it a fair amount, few things i didn't like: 1. library 2. nontraditional campus layout 3. nearest town being historic st. mary's and everything else is 2 hours away. but i think if i had to go there i'd be okay. i hope that i find a school i *love* (namely haverford) because i'd rather go to a school i adore than a school i just kinda like. yah i probably expect too much : ) but at least going to haverford next weekend should be fun. nothing really interesting is going on though it kinda sucks that lanna's in ohio/poughkeepsie because we won't be able to ogle our set together. oh well, you win some and lose some. anyway my weekend's pretty relaxed. found out yesterday that the defense team is going against this random catholic school from talbot county on the18th in towson. interestingly enough, the defending state champions (park school) aren't even in the top 8 this year. it could give us a better chance, who knows? but as of now we need to win at towson. i miss mocktrial i'm so glad to have a intra-squad mocktrial on monday. this month long break has been more than enough. happy saturday everyone!